21. Artist. Inked. Pierced
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I came to you because I believed you would try and hear things through. You just brushed it off like it was nothing. You disregarded me unknowingly and just put up a facade of being cool and collected. Okay, I get you, but put your dream to the fucking side for just a second of your day and listen to yourself. “I will go on my own time, with or without you or cousin, or just with older sis.”
No, that’s NOT how it works. Our only grandmother, is going blind… It fucking matters because she wants to see us all together, not apart. You didn’t see how much of a jerk you came off to be when I contacted you. If I were to record you and let you hear yourself, you’d notice how bad of a heartless prick you sounded like.
I’m proud and all that you are pursuing your dream, but god fucking damn, put it on the side for just a moment, and realize, your grandmother is slowly drifting away from not only you but from ALL of us.
I hope you realize what you’ve just done.
It’s been a while since I’ve written anything, if anything, blogged or even ranted at all. I’m sorry Tumblr, I guess life really did its course on me, if you may say? Well, I’ve got a story to tell you. I’m college-bound again! Can you believe that? I still don’t believe it… until I’m in class, that is. LOL, talk about crazy. I feel old. I’m in a class of Freshmen in almost every one of my classes. There are only two or three older classmates, however, it still doesn’t change the fact how I still feel old. Goddamit, I’m supposed to be a Junior D:! Oh well, that year off taught me more than I’ll ever be able to put into words.
Everything happens for a reason after all, right? WELL THEN, let’s get to the class room rants! Just kidding, there’s nothing bad about my classes honestly, maybe just my computer class that seems to be the ass pain. I mean, my professor wants ALL of us students to purchase Adobe Photoshop. Like, are you fucking shitting me?
I work part time, I have a phone bill to pay, AND I’m saving to get a car by the end of the year. And she expects us to purchase this $300-$500 program to do hw and projects on… -_- Sorry lady, I can’t do that. What I CAN do is go to school to do my assignments. As troubling as it may be, I’ll drive back and forth. Ugh… being a student is tough. Oh well, I’m looking forward to this semester back! <3
I never imagined I’d be standing up again after my last fall.
Things to keep in mind.
- The people who said they would be there won’t always be there.
- Family isn’t always as strong as people would make them out to be.
- Friends either come, and go, and only few choose to stay.
- Everything happens for a reason, whether good or bad.
But whatever the case may be, never blame yourself for anything that happened. Whether it was because you lost a friend, recently still recovering from a break up, or even having problems with your family, never hold the guilt inside you.
Sometimes your best isn’t the best in others eyes, but to some, your best can mean the entire world to them. Sometimes you can get into arguments so harsh that it can slowly demolish the relationship you have with the people you care most about.
It can’t be helped though, because the order of things flow differently for each and every one of us. We may crumble, we may fall, we may even break apart into millions of pieces, but nothing can ever stop us from rising back up. To rejuvenate ourselves, even if it takes months, or even years, nothing will ever stop us from rising back up again, stronger each and every time we rise.
Never give up on yourself.
You can become the greatest anyone can ever be, or possibly even more. Just bear in mind, that the struggles are only part of your quests to complete before reaching the finish line. You can do it, even if others don’t believe in you, know that there is someone out there, also wishing for your happiness to come true.
What I’ve learned:
- Not all promises are kept.
- Not all guys are jerks.
- Not all girls are bitches.
- Not all relationships are perfect.
But that’s the whole purpose of everything. That’s the beauty of it all. To meet people, to walk away from people. Knowing when to stop caring, knowing when to give your best, and knowing when you have to let go of what doesn’t belong. Sometimes things don’t always go your way, but that’s okay. Sometimes you fear nothing will ever be perfect, but that’s okay too, because everyone is scared of imperfection.
It’s hope that fuels us, support that molds us, friendships that build us, and last but never the least, love which motives us with endless amounts of courage. With love in our hearts, we become more active and less likely to be afraid. We become motivated. We become invincible.
We need to learn to appreciate everything as a whole. People, and family alike. We need to embrace love more and let go of the hate that linger in our hearts, as much as we dislike admitting it.
It’s time to embrace, not exclude.